We(our family)recently finished a book called, "Safely Home" by Randy Alcorn. It was honestly, the best novel I have ever read. It totally changed my perspective on being martyred. I used to be very scared of dieing for Jesus but through this book God has shown me that dieing for him is a glorious thing and that I should be glad to do his will, even if it means dieing for him. I highly recommend that you read this in the very near future.